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Everyone was in a jubilant mood. Relatives from all over the city had gathered to celebrate the entry of a new child into the family. I am talking about Angela my niece, who was born to my cousin on this day. My parents and I were invited to the naming ceremony of Angela. I cannot forget that day till date. Indeed it was a new beginning for me. It has been so many years since the incident but it is as fresh as ever in my mind and it will be all through my life as a fresh leaf in my book. My folks, sisters, brother and all my cousins had got together at this function. Though it was a happy event in my cousin's life but it was not so for me.

I was sitting on the porch trying to comprehend whether I was wrong in distancing myself from my husband or denying him the physical intimacy. My marriage was on the verge of falling apart when one day my husband asked me the reason for the denial and I blurted out the truth after which I went to a shrink. After 4 months of continuous sessions did I realize what a burden I was carrying on my back due to which I was not able to lead a normal married life! This incident had been buried in my heart and was told only to my husband and my shrink who had faith in me.

Vacations are a fun time for kids and like every other kid I too would wait for the vacations but hardly did I know that one vacation would be a nightmare for me in the years to follow. On the day we reached my cousin's place my parents left for a stroll in the evening leaving my younger brother and me with the cousin to take care of us. No sooner did my parents leave that my cousin brother sent my brother to play in the garden. A few moments later I felt his hand all over my body, feeling me. I was 14 then. In the days that followed he would come near me with some reason or the other and touch my private parts. In the beginning it was just during the evenings when we would play he would caress me but his confidence grew and one night he slept next to me and he had his hands inside my panties. His hands were inside my vagina exploring it and I lay quiet crying softly within me. I hated every moment of it I even tried screaming but then my voice was muffled by his hands. His physical desires left bruises not just on my body but my soul.

I lay there helpless and in pain as I couldn't fight against him. When I tried telling my parents that I didn't want my cousin to sleep next to me they made me quiet. All I did was pray to God when the vacations would end and I could go back home away from my cousin and the pain that he has caused me. This continued for almost 5 years. As I entered college I joined coaching classes so that I could avoid going to my cousin's house.

But then one day it so happened that after marriage I had to attend a function at my cousin's house. As I entered the house old memories came back to me and I could feel every nerve of my body freeze. My cousin whom I loathed so much came up to me and touched my cheek I froze with that touch and he could sense it. He smiled and said you still are as beautiful as before. My blood was boiling with anger but kept mum. He commented on how lucky was my husband and that was it and I exploded. All the years that I had kept mum came before me and I spurted out everything that I had gone through and with that I left their house. As I came back to my home I saw my husband waiting for me. I just hugged him and tears poured down. I was relieved of all the pent up pain and burden within me.

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