Your experiance sounds like close to self relalization, I had similar experiance, For couple of days, I used to got wake up in the early morning. I found that the heart is beating to meet some one. Mind is out on race to find the love or rabba(god of love) All different feelings you expressed, felt togher. I also feel like i have not realized my whole self. We got married little early before completing the education, During my MS, I used to stay away from my wife and I started playing flute to feel my self complete and not lonely, I learned the flute the cowherd style from the friend Utkarsh. I do not know what raags, but I figured out that the songs I liked were mostly from Shivrangini raga. (I felt that this raga is best suitable and plesant when away from your's one) I play flute, But I am not Bansidhar. I am cowherd type person comming from village into New Jesery, USA. My wife's name means the name of the deamon acording to some vedic stories which was defeated by Lord Vishnu. Her name also means Honey. We live happily togher and She agrees with me most of the time even if I talk of the making girls friends, Its like I have won her heart and mind, But I feel uncomplete., I also feel the sound of bees in the brain and feel the feelings of not complete and love and betrayal all emotions togher. I might get some clues and ideas from my body postures about who we are, but then my brain gets occupied with processing of the vedic stories and desires and end up evaluating what name means what and what's there in name ? So I think You should listen to my flute as it is. Or there should be Niti's Vandana on this earth. I read about mystic experiances. I don't know Malayalam, but Malayalam movie Nandanam might be good source of art to understand feelings and expressions as herd from the friend.
